c/o: miss montana

Dear Hannah:

You and I. We’re more alike than I thought.

In fact, I’m ashamed to say that until this weekend, I kind of brushed you aside.

But now I want to buy your music and blare it on my iPod.

Because, I kind of relate.

The whole best of both worlds thing resonates with me.

I bet a lot of people recognize the feeling.

The wanting the best of both worlds feeling.

Of course, I don’t mean being a celebrity.

I actually don’t want that at all. Yuck. Just thinking about it makes me sick. In the spotlight all the time? No thanks.

I mean, that’s great for you and all. But not me.

But the best of both worlds isn’t just about being torn between celebrity and normal.

Is it?

I didn’t think so.

It’s just about being torn.

Which is what I am, oh, about 99% of the time.

That sounds bad.

But it’s not.

I just have an imagination, so I think a lot.

Plus I happen to like a lot of things.

Like traveling.

And big cities.

But also farms.

And quiet.

Design.

And writing.

But also helping people.

And organizing.

So you can see why I am torn so much.

Why I want the best of both worlds.

The villa in Italy and the farm in Kentucky.

The loft in NYC and the cottage in Tallahassee.


The own-my-own-business and the non-profit organization.


The design and the writing and the grad degree.

And the truth is, I haven’t had to choose between too many things.

But when I have had to choose… it’s been rather painful.

So I get what you’re saying. I understand your pain.

In about a year, I have a feeling I’ll be in the midst of another life-changing decision.

When I might have to choose between two worlds.

Because some people say you can’t have your cake and eat it too.

(Although, that’s never made much sense to me. So…)

But the point is, in a year, things might be changing.

And I’ve been doing a lot of complaining lately.

So it’s time to stop. The complaining, I mean.

Because, like you said, it’s all about the climb.

So I’m going to enjoy this little life I have here, this little world I’ve been given.

And when the time comes, I might choose something else.

But for now, I like what I’ve got.

Thanks for opening my eyes to that.

Sincerely,
ASBJ